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one after another and another and another.


first it was him.
talking shit and not making sense.
ended up not even entertaining him.
now, we're not even on talking terms.
i cant even SEE his face.
just because...
*sigh*

then it was the rumour.
from a single party to manymany parties,
then suddenly to ppl that are not even IN the picture.
i really hate it when two close frens start talking abt things gg on in some other person's life.
and i really shud be grateful to the person who STARTED this thing.
im learning who to trust and who not to.
and apparently, im losing the trust of quite a number of ppl.
ill be keeping my mouth sealed from now on.

then there are the frens.
hoooooooo. how my blood boiled when they pestered and pestered.
from the day i stepped into tpjc, ive NEVER liked cliques.
im NEVER stuck into one either. i JUMP.
not until this year. suddenly i was IN a clique just because.
and the stupid thing was, im not even close to more than half of them!
it was just a bloody coincidence that im close to one and that i have another in my class.
it was just a bloody coincidence that i HAPPEN to always sit with them during breaks.
this i shall say clearly, cliques suck big time and even suckier when u're not even in one.
waaaaaaaaaah. and they just have to make it WORSE.
i didnt recall signing a freaking contract that says i have to be with them and do EVERYTHING with them 24/7. i didnt even SAY i want to hang out with them.
like seriously, i rather not talk to any of them than always being stuck to them.
TAK KASI FREEDOM!!!
their future spouses will really have a hard time.
(x

oh. another thing...
im like so the sick of pretending!
pretending im not close to someone when we almost always talk on the phone after school.
pretending that everything i do does not include another person just because some dont agree.
and plus.. pretending a certain friendship is alright when it is soooo screwed up that i dont see a way out of it.


but these things, fortunately, are just small part in my life. THANK GOD i have my wonderful, although sometimes messed up, family. THANK GOD i have a goal to achieve in life that diverts me from all these superficial shit. THANK GOD i have my hockey girls to chase all these problems away. and THANK GOD for homeworks and assignments and revisions to keep me busy and push aside those problems.

yeahh ok. my life might sound so screwed up to u guys but seriously, im kinda loving it. its not always a breeze to live so ive learnt to handle shit.

p.s. i can count the number of ppl im close to and trust with one hand!
((x


gdnyte.

one after another and another and another.


first it was him.
talking shit and not making sense.
ended up not even entertaining him.
now, we're not even on talking terms.
i cant even SEE his face.
just because...
*sigh*

then it was the rumour.
from a single party to manymany parties,
then suddenly to ppl that are not even IN the picture.
i really hate it when two close frens start talking abt things gg on in some other person's life.
and i really shud be grateful to the person who STARTED this thing.
im learning who to trust and who not to.
and apparently, im losing the trust of quite a number of ppl.
ill be keeping my mouth sealed from now on.

then there are the frens.
hoooooooo. how my blood boiled when they pestered and pestered.
from the day i stepped into tpjc, ive NEVER liked cliques.
im NEVER stuck into one either. i JUMP.
not until this year. suddenly i was IN a clique just because.
and the stupid thing was, im not even close to more than half of them!
it was just a bloody coincidence that im close to one and that i have another in my class.
it was just a bloody coincidence that i HAPPEN to always sit with them during breaks.
this i shall say clearly, cliques suck big time and even suckier when u're not even in one.
waaaaaaaaaah. and they just have to make it WORSE.
i didnt recall signing a freaking contract that says i have to be with them and do EVERYTHING with them 24/7. i didnt even SAY i want to hang out with them.
like seriously, i rather not talk to any of them than always being stuck to them.
TAK KASI FREEDOM!!!
their future spouses will really have a hard time.
(x

oh. another thing...
im like so the sick of pretending!
pretending im not close to someone when we almost always talk on the phone after school.
pretending that everything i do does not include another person just because some dont agree.
and plus.. pretending a certain friendship is alright when it is soooo screwed up that i dont see a way out of it.


but these things, fortunately, are just small part in my life. THANK GOD i have my wonderful, although sometimes messed up, family. THANK GOD i have a goal to achieve in life that diverts me from all these superficial shit. THANK GOD i have my hockey girls to chase all these problems away. and THANK GOD for homeworks and assignments and revisions to keep me busy and push aside those problems.

yeahh ok. my life might sound so screwed up to u guys but seriously, im kinda loving it. its not always a breeze to live so ive learnt to handle shit.

p.s. i can count the number of ppl im close to and trust with one hand!
((x


gdnyte.