Thursday, November 22, 2007
truthfully,
there's something(s) about you that has been bugging me all this while. i mean, no one's perfect right? i dont blame you for that. its just me, im getting less and less tolerant of that something(s). you may ask, but sadly enough, i dont have the answer. really really, i dont blame you in any way! i just think i need time rethink again. i dont know what's wrong with me. maybe its the hectic schedule that made me this less tolerant. but then again, ive always been constantly doing things. maybe its pms? but unlike most girls, i dont get such things and even if so, i was never having any period at that point of time, or even now. so yarh. you needed an explanation. unfortunately, this is the closest, most detailed explanation i can give at this point of time. im sorry. seriously. deep down, i dont want this to happen. ive tried a few times to lighten up the situation but i dont wanna sound fake at all. but im sorry. i dont know what made me think this way. but just so you know, ive not changed in any way. just less tolerant or maybe more aware of the little things that i dont like. lets just say, im more analytical? maybe what my instructors in every camp have told me was true. dominant people are more analytical, task-minded and less relationship-oriented. tried to prove them wrong, but i failed. i guess im born with a mind constantly thinking and questioning. cmon, you shud know me by now- im never easy at trusting others nor those ive trusted for so long. i tend to question again, once in awhile. ah i dont know what im talking about right now. damnit. im so sorry. really. my rantings never made sense right?
work was fun. thats all.
♥ 9:07 PM
