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whitish kittens are the cutest thing ever!

truthfully,
there's something(s) about you that has been bugging me all this while. i mean, no one's perfect right? i dont blame you for that. its just me, im getting less and less tolerant of that something(s). you may ask, but sadly enough, i dont have the answer. really really, i dont blame you in any way! i just think i need time rethink again. i dont know what's wrong with me. maybe its the hectic schedule that made me this less tolerant. but then again, ive always been constantly doing things. maybe its pms? but unlike most girls, i dont get such things and even if so, i was never having any period at that point of time, or even now. so yarh. you needed an explanation. unfortunately, this is the closest, most detailed explanation i can give at this point of time. im sorry. seriously. deep down, i dont want this to happen. ive tried a few times to lighten up the situation but i dont wanna sound fake at all. but im sorry. i dont know what made me think this way. but just so you know, ive not changed in any way. just less tolerant or maybe more aware of the little things that i dont like. lets just say, im more analytical? maybe what my instructors in every camp have told me was true. dominant people are more analytical, task-minded and less relationship-oriented. tried to prove them wrong, but i failed. i guess im born with a mind constantly thinking and questioning. cmon, you shud know me by now- im never easy at trusting others nor those ive trusted for so long. i tend to question again, once in awhile. ah i dont know what im talking about right now. damnit. im so sorry. really. my rantings never made sense right?



work was fun. thats all.



i miss sab who had been my girlfren for 5-days- sleeping, eating, walking, kayaking and doing almost everything together.
i miss rosz, the sweetest gal who had been e most helpful and keeping me company.
i miss jie yong, the most gentleman ive ever met with all those helpful, caring moments that made me feel so lucky having sucha campmate ard.
i miss melvin with his clever navigation skills that had helped us sooo greatly during e camp and his willingness to help ard.
i miss farhan who had almost always been by my side and keeping me smiling and laughing almost everytime.
i miss jiangpeng who kept me smiling with his farhan-lame jokes and helped through willingly.
i miss yi bing, my gossipmate and the one who never said no when asked to help.
i miss yong sheng with his sexy voice and old man antics. wise man, he is.
i miss kelly who is so sweet and helpful. a funny girl, indeed.
i miss siongjun, the enthusiastic one that never stopped cheering on.
i miss ruobin the other enthusiastic one.
i miss serene who is quietly helping out.
i miss adeline who is friendly and talkative.
i miss li qiao who proved me that she is not as quiet and shy as i thot she was.
i miss cat who tried to be funny and getting out of her shell.
i miss ahmad who is greatest instructor ever! camp would never been this fun without him ard.


simply, i miss my da gama.
never knew such a camp can leave such an impact.



frankly enough, im getting sick of u.
its so annoying how u try to make things seem like u're the right one.
u dont care about me la, fuck.



camp was one of the best times this year.
i didnt wna leave each one of them.



i dont feel like talking.
bye.



"Haha.. Alright2 then.. U just know how to make me smile..."

"Aye yun u noe ure a great prsn 2 have arnd.N i wldve seriously missd u if i didnt make it...mak cnt believe im telling u dis.Kental sak.
...
Wah im serious lah sia.I cn talk 2 u bt most things..."



some people just make me feel very lucky to live.
that includes you people! (:

i still do love random msgs. <3


i feel like posting raye pictures over here but im so goddamn lazy!
ill find some other time luh.






07Nov'07

after what ive been through all my life, this has been the greatest failure. everything just felt so numb and empty all of a sudden. i didnt know what to feel nor say. knowing myself, i know i can pull myself back up easily and act like im alright with it. but i cant lie that i actually felt really really sad and disappointed. its like i suddenly lost a part of myself. yeah, lifes gonna be abit different without flying. heh. i donno what im gonna do now that im so free. gotta find a new hobby or get a job. haha. wateva it is, im gonna make sure im not gonna dwell too much on this. my flying passion aint gonna stop here. looking forward to joining the airforce or some airline. (:

and to those who consoled or comforted me, thank you. it really helped me from tearing again. hah. yeah, it meant so much to me that i actually cried. boohoooo. bleargh. i hope i get over this soon. this is soooo much harder than getting over a break up!



Violet, no worries. im doing good(: im fine, so u dont need to be so worried about me, yeah?
thank u for caring. and just fyi, ure as real as a real friend. (:

whitish kittens are the cutest thing ever!

truthfully,
there's something(s) about you that has been bugging me all this while. i mean, no one's perfect right? i dont blame you for that. its just me, im getting less and less tolerant of that something(s). you may ask, but sadly enough, i dont have the answer. really really, i dont blame you in any way! i just think i need time rethink again. i dont know what's wrong with me. maybe its the hectic schedule that made me this less tolerant. but then again, ive always been constantly doing things. maybe its pms? but unlike most girls, i dont get such things and even if so, i was never having any period at that point of time, or even now. so yarh. you needed an explanation. unfortunately, this is the closest, most detailed explanation i can give at this point of time. im sorry. seriously. deep down, i dont want this to happen. ive tried a few times to lighten up the situation but i dont wanna sound fake at all. but im sorry. i dont know what made me think this way. but just so you know, ive not changed in any way. just less tolerant or maybe more aware of the little things that i dont like. lets just say, im more analytical? maybe what my instructors in every camp have told me was true. dominant people are more analytical, task-minded and less relationship-oriented. tried to prove them wrong, but i failed. i guess im born with a mind constantly thinking and questioning. cmon, you shud know me by now- im never easy at trusting others nor those ive trusted for so long. i tend to question again, once in awhile. ah i dont know what im talking about right now. damnit. im so sorry. really. my rantings never made sense right?



work was fun. thats all.


i miss sab who had been my girlfren for 5-days- sleeping, eating, walking, kayaking and doing almost everything together.
i miss rosz, the sweetest gal who had been e most helpful and keeping me company.
i miss jie yong, the most gentleman ive ever met with all those helpful, caring moments that made me feel so lucky having sucha campmate ard.
i miss melvin with his clever navigation skills that had helped us sooo greatly during e camp and his willingness to help ard.
i miss farhan who had almost always been by my side and keeping me smiling and laughing almost everytime.
i miss jiangpeng who kept me smiling with his farhan-lame jokes and helped through willingly.
i miss yi bing, my gossipmate and the one who never said no when asked to help.
i miss yong sheng with his sexy voice and old man antics. wise man, he is.
i miss kelly who is so sweet and helpful. a funny girl, indeed.
i miss siongjun, the enthusiastic one that never stopped cheering on.
i miss ruobin the other enthusiastic one.
i miss serene who is quietly helping out.
i miss adeline who is friendly and talkative.
i miss li qiao who proved me that she is not as quiet and shy as i thot she was.
i miss cat who tried to be funny and getting out of her shell.
i miss ahmad who is greatest instructor ever! camp would never been this fun without him ard.


simply, i miss my da gama.
never knew such a camp can leave such an impact.


frankly enough, im getting sick of u.
its so annoying how u try to make things seem like u're the right one.
u dont care about me la, fuck.



camp was one of the best times this year.
i didnt wna leave each one of them.



i dont feel like talking.
bye.


"Haha.. Alright2 then.. U just know how to make me smile..."

"Aye yun u noe ure a great prsn 2 have arnd.N i wldve seriously missd u if i didnt make it...mak cnt believe im telling u dis.Kental sak.
...
Wah im serious lah sia.I cn talk 2 u bt most things..."



some people just make me feel very lucky to live.
that includes you people! (:

i still do love random msgs. <3


i feel like posting raye pictures over here but im so goddamn lazy!
ill find some other time luh.





07Nov'07

after what ive been through all my life, this has been the greatest failure. everything just felt so numb and empty all of a sudden. i didnt know what to feel nor say. knowing myself, i know i can pull myself back up easily and act like im alright with it. but i cant lie that i actually felt really really sad and disappointed. its like i suddenly lost a part of myself. yeah, lifes gonna be abit different without flying. heh. i donno what im gonna do now that im so free. gotta find a new hobby or get a job. haha. wateva it is, im gonna make sure im not gonna dwell too much on this. my flying passion aint gonna stop here. looking forward to joining the airforce or some airline. (:

and to those who consoled or comforted me, thank you. it really helped me from tearing again. hah. yeah, it meant so much to me that i actually cried. boohoooo. bleargh. i hope i get over this soon. this is soooo much harder than getting over a break up!


Violet, no worries. im doing good(: im fine, so u dont need to be so worried about me, yeah?
thank u for caring. and just fyi, ure as real as a real friend. (: