Sunday, October 28, 2007
i can count the number of close friends i have with my fingers.
yeah, sure i have a lot of friends. i know a lot of people in school. i have friends outside too. but at the end of the day, those who actually stay are so few. ok wait. maybe i shouldnt blame them. yeah, many wants to stay. they say they will there for me and that i can turn to them whenever i need someone. but i guess its me who should be blamed.
it all comes down to what ive said before, im so darn choosy when it comes to picking close friends. there is always this fear that i might choose the wrong person to be my confidante. and then my life will be a living hell. im scared to be vulnerable or rely on someone so greatly to an extent that my life will be ruined without that person. so here i am, alone. reason: too coward to let someone take care of me for once.
bahh. i need to start trusting ppl. stupid me. sheesh i said this before sia and its still e same. words without actions is nothing. bleargh.
[i wrote this freaking post three freaking days ago. so i actually freaking forgot what i wanted to freaking say. thank u.]
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