Tuesday, October 30, 2007
'aku actually takde bnyk kawan to turn to. cumer ____ and _____ jer. kau, actually pon samer ah. ok dah ah. jgn nak kembang.'
its surprising to see those unexpected ones find comfort in you. you would think theyre just playing ard or sth but knowing a lot about them already, you know theyre telling the truth. i guess thats what i love about some ppl. theyre not afraid to be frank and straightforward. theyre certain about things that matters and their feelings. and the thing about them is, theyre one of the most humble lots you can ever find.
and there is the other lot. the ones who nonchalantly say they love you and all. and as days go by, those three words are just like a complement of goodbyes. dont you think so? and now, im afraid more than ever to utter those used-to-be-meaningful words. i dont want to be another hypocrite. and now, i am actually stuck in situation whereby e other party actually does that and i dont know what to reply back. right now, im surviving on 'awww!' followed by a hug. hmm. i cant really say back to them. i, truthfully, dont. i do enjoy their company but until i experience for myself what they are capable of giving me, i cant say that just yet. i need to see how far they can go for me. hah. seems selfish? but i think thats the only way to prove their worthiness. [CHEY! (x] im saving the 'iloveyous' for those who mean sth to me. and ryt now, i can only find 3. yeah. back to e situation, im stuck and i dno what to do to not make them question me just because i cant have e same feelings as them. bleargh.
i wonder why you lied to me in the first place.
it was never harmful to tell me the truth. but why didnt you?
and now, our friendship is being question.
you even broke ur promise to keep the little secret.
i guess we shud never be any closer than just friends.
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