entries profile tagboard links

'aku actually takde bnyk kawan to turn to. cumer ____ and _____ jer. kau, actually pon samer ah. ok dah ah. jgn nak kembang.'

its surprising to see those unexpected ones find comfort in you. you would think theyre just playing ard or sth but knowing a lot about them already, you know theyre telling the truth. i guess thats what i love about some ppl. theyre not afraid to be frank and straightforward. theyre certain about things that matters and their feelings. and the thing about them is, theyre one of the most humble lots you can ever find.


and there is the other lot. the ones who nonchalantly say they love you and all. and as days go by, those three words are just like a complement of goodbyes. dont you think so? and now, im afraid more than ever to utter those used-to-be-meaningful words. i dont want to be another hypocrite. and now, i am actually stuck in situation whereby e other party actually does that and i dont know what to reply back. right now, im surviving on 'awww!' followed by a hug. hmm. i cant really say back to them. i, truthfully, dont. i do enjoy their company but until i experience for myself what they are capable of giving me, i cant say that just yet. i need to see how far they can go for me. hah. seems selfish? but i think thats the only way to prove their worthiness. [CHEY! (x] im saving the 'iloveyous' for those who mean sth to me. and ryt now, i can only find 3. yeah. back to e situation, im stuck and i dno what to do to not make them question me just because i cant have e same feelings as them. bleargh.








i can count the number of close friends i have with my fingers.



yeah, sure i have a lot of friends. i know a lot of people in school. i have friends outside too. but at the end of the day, those who actually stay are so few. ok wait. maybe i shouldnt blame them. yeah, many wants to stay. they say they will there for me and that i can turn to them whenever i need someone. but i guess its me who should be blamed.



it all comes down to what ive said before, im so darn choosy when it comes to picking close friends. there is always this fear that i might choose the wrong person to be my confidante. and then my life will be a living hell. im scared to be vulnerable or rely on someone so greatly to an extent that my life will be ruined without that person. so here i am, alone. reason: too coward to let someone take care of me for once.


bahh. i need to start trusting ppl. stupid me. sheesh i said this before sia and its still e same. words without actions is nothing. bleargh.

[i wrote this freaking post three freaking days ago. so i actually freaking forgot what i wanted to freaking say. thank u.]



M.O.S was fun.
with abduh, farhan, alia, hid, su, moe, samuel and salon(sp?)
(:
it was cool- how it all happened.
hisham was great. he came in 2nd.
crowd wasnt that happening buuuuuuuuuuut...
i got to take pictures w shan wee and dan ong!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOH!!
i got to feel shan's abs (hoohoo!) and dan hugged me. happy girl la sia.
but i just HAD to lose my photo w dan):
ok dah!

took a lorry back to hisham's place.
the wind blowing my hair.... smpi kusut masai!
got a few moments to reflect....



*hits head on the wall*



nth ever seems good enough for u, issit?
thanks for showing how much u appreciate e amt of work i have put in.
at e end of e day, i still feel sooooo miserable because i didnt make u happy or proud of me.
it was never about the process for u, isnt it?
all u want is results.
u never took into considerations e challenges i had to go thru.
u never knew how much load i had to carry on my shoulders or how i have to juggle ALL my activities.
didnt u?

heh.
i didnt even see any smiles on ur faces.
thank u.


this is to shrtl and sam who never fail to cheer me up: thank u darlings! (: and shrtl! it just makes me so happy and tingly inside thinking about what we talked about. hehe. sshhh!



13th oct 2007

having so much time spent on e car, i had some spare moments to think. i was suddenly thinking about e forbidden fruit then it hit me. its sucha cliche for yuni to think about her crush even tho she doesnt even know e least about hime. pish. i was dumbfounded.
theeeeeeeeeeen...
songs were playing in my head - soulmate and dangerously in love.
after that, interrupted by your guardian angel by the red jumpsuit apparatus and teman istimewa by taufiq batisah.
just influenced me to start daydreaming again.

will i find e right guy?
will i even fall in love. really.
not those immature, shallow ones i had.
deep and meaningful one that goes somewhere.
sth i wna feel but have nvr felt.

sure i am independent. i can live on my own two feet and take care of myself pretty well. but then, i'll always feel this emptiness. a part of my heart that is still vacant and begging for some soul to fill e slot. maybe i need a man after all.
who?

a man that understands me and that i understand.
a man that is able to tolerate my nonsense.
a man that can accept my imperfections.
a man that asks for nothing but e sincere love i have for him.
a man that is able to e there for me when i need someone e most.
a man that can trust me and that i can trust.
a man that can make me a better person.

e things in a man i have still yet to find. im choosy. yeah, i know. but these are the things that can make me see, beyond his imperfections, e wonderful person he is. someone i can actually love regardless of his looks, wealth, colour & beliefs.




ooooooooooh my. so flowery, yuni!
(x
haha. but im serious this time.
i aint gna change la.
just gna be more serious and stop fooling around.
i dont wna end up an anak dara tua.
quaquaquaaaaaaa.



1 SYAWAL
SELAMAT HARI RAYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE (:


im gna let e pictures do e talking.

everyone, my lovely siblings(:

my grandmama, young at heart.

e one who came up w my name, my aunt.

my other granny. nanny is mummy's side.

11th oct 2007

went out to buke w a whole lot of tpjc malays.
at ZEENATH Restaurant. funny name.
there were farhan, fir, farid, naf, hidayah, arep, monawir, mus, ihsan, razali, faizul, su, alia, wak, luqman, oni, hfzddn, ahmad, rais, mai and azli.
i ate nasi goreng black pepper (daging). and its nice! (:
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalked a LONG way from still road to geylang bazaar.
but it was a nice walk tho.
nas came later on but left after a while.
we pretty much did nothing but walk and wait ahh.
until we came to singpost.
sat near e fountain and as usual, lepak.
kinda fun tho. more talks.
its like late night already and e sky was dark and pretty.
only left at 12.15.
took e last train w farid, man and alia.
e guys and i dropped at simei and we bought our drinks at 7eleven.
walked from simei all e way back to our estate.
i liked e cool breeze. weehoo. and more talks.
farid left us and we sat under man's block and talked.
i finally reached home at 1.30am. all worn out and tired.


i like love talks.
get me close to friends i never know i cud get close to.
(:



its over!!
PROMO'S OVER.

woooooooooooooh.
enjoy! (:


and yes i actually did.
slept for a full 5 hours right after reaching home.
met up w dear bestie.
had fun chatting but didnt really enjoy getting chased by a downsyndrome dude. brr. still gives me e chills.
buke-d w bestie, her boyfriend/my classmate, luqman, twin and azmi.
odd combination la sia. hahaha. but we have atleast one thing in common- we all know hfzddn(x

the first three left.
chilled w twin and azmi for a while at food culture before walking around cs.
hazlami and alif beng joined in.
decided to play at e arcade.
spend more than an hour and a half there! longest ive been. seriously.
and i beat them in futsal. i scored e most number of goals. wooh!
the hockey game is, as usual, gereks.
and i feel i shud try playing more of e shooting game. it looked cool. especially when watching haz's accurate shootings.
then spend some time at open plaza.
e guys forced me into trying out the spinning thingy.
bargained for only 10secs on it but azmi cheated.
so i had to tolerate it for about a minute.
omg. i cud hardly stand up when e spinning stopped.
i walked like a drunken lady(x haha.
ladidadida...
birthday boy treated us w macs ice-cream.
thank you, again(:
and btw, i still think ure lucky that we didnt pull the prank on you.
itd be fun tho. having ice-cream on your face. haha.

stroooooooooolled to e int.
by then, it was 10plus.
e guys met up w other guys mats.
and i guessed that was my cue to go.
evil twin walked me to my bus. [irony?]

i reached home and i didnt get a single scolding.
wooh. im a happy kid.
huahua.

GEYLANG tmr. i wonder who's coming.
its gonna be fun, i gueeeeeeeess?



some ppl just dont learn.
FUCK.
i thot old ppl shud know how to prioritise.
i guess it doesnt apply to all old ppl.
old = wise ?
sure. now, i think its just a number.











one more thing.
i shall call it the forbidden fruit now.
so near yet so far.
i hate e feeling of not getting what i really want.



i stumbled upon this..

ITS THE REMINISING :)
Thursday, September 20, 2007 @ 4:32 AM

I MISS MY YUNI DARLINGGG!!
life sucks without
having her to bitch talk to sometimes.
its like we're two coherent waves.
always constructive, never destructive.
I LOVE YOU, BABY! <3
one more after promos :)

okayy study
study study.


''Never frown, even when you
are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your
smile.

((:
made me smile.

life has been great.
seriously.

♥ 9:22 PM

'aku actually takde bnyk kawan to turn to. cumer ____ and _____ jer. kau, actually pon samer ah. ok dah ah. jgn nak kembang.'

its surprising to see those unexpected ones find comfort in you. you would think theyre just playing ard or sth but knowing a lot about them already, you know theyre telling the truth. i guess thats what i love about some ppl. theyre not afraid to be frank and straightforward. theyre certain about things that matters and their feelings. and the thing about them is, theyre one of the most humble lots you can ever find.


and there is the other lot. the ones who nonchalantly say they love you and all. and as days go by, those three words are just like a complement of goodbyes. dont you think so? and now, im afraid more than ever to utter those used-to-be-meaningful words. i dont want to be another hypocrite. and now, i am actually stuck in situation whereby e other party actually does that and i dont know what to reply back. right now, im surviving on 'awww!' followed by a hug. hmm. i cant really say back to them. i, truthfully, dont. i do enjoy their company but until i experience for myself what they are capable of giving me, i cant say that just yet. i need to see how far they can go for me. hah. seems selfish? but i think thats the only way to prove their worthiness. [CHEY! (x] im saving the 'iloveyous' for those who mean sth to me. and ryt now, i can only find 3. yeah. back to e situation, im stuck and i dno what to do to not make them question me just because i cant have e same feelings as them. bleargh.







i can count the number of close friends i have with my fingers.



yeah, sure i have a lot of friends. i know a lot of people in school. i have friends outside too. but at the end of the day, those who actually stay are so few. ok wait. maybe i shouldnt blame them. yeah, many wants to stay. they say they will there for me and that i can turn to them whenever i need someone. but i guess its me who should be blamed.



it all comes down to what ive said before, im so darn choosy when it comes to picking close friends. there is always this fear that i might choose the wrong person to be my confidante. and then my life will be a living hell. im scared to be vulnerable or rely on someone so greatly to an extent that my life will be ruined without that person. so here i am, alone. reason: too coward to let someone take care of me for once.


bahh. i need to start trusting ppl. stupid me. sheesh i said this before sia and its still e same. words without actions is nothing. bleargh.

[i wrote this freaking post three freaking days ago. so i actually freaking forgot what i wanted to freaking say. thank u.]


M.O.S was fun.
with abduh, farhan, alia, hid, su, moe, samuel and salon(sp?)
(:
it was cool- how it all happened.
hisham was great. he came in 2nd.
crowd wasnt that happening buuuuuuuuuuut...
i got to take pictures w shan wee and dan ong!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOH!!
i got to feel shan's abs (hoohoo!) and dan hugged me. happy girl la sia.
but i just HAD to lose my photo w dan):
ok dah!

took a lorry back to hisham's place.
the wind blowing my hair.... smpi kusut masai!
got a few moments to reflect....



*hits head on the wall*


nth ever seems good enough for u, issit?
thanks for showing how much u appreciate e amt of work i have put in.
at e end of e day, i still feel sooooo miserable because i didnt make u happy or proud of me.
it was never about the process for u, isnt it?
all u want is results.
u never took into considerations e challenges i had to go thru.
u never knew how much load i had to carry on my shoulders or how i have to juggle ALL my activities.
didnt u?

heh.
i didnt even see any smiles on ur faces.
thank u.


this is to shrtl and sam who never fail to cheer me up: thank u darlings! (: and shrtl! it just makes me so happy and tingly inside thinking about what we talked about. hehe. sshhh!


13th oct 2007

having so much time spent on e car, i had some spare moments to think. i was suddenly thinking about e forbidden fruit then it hit me. its sucha cliche for yuni to think about her crush even tho she doesnt even know e least about hime. pish. i was dumbfounded.
theeeeeeeeeeen...
songs were playing in my head - soulmate and dangerously in love.
after that, interrupted by your guardian angel by the red jumpsuit apparatus and teman istimewa by taufiq batisah.
just influenced me to start daydreaming again.

will i find e right guy?
will i even fall in love. really.
not those immature, shallow ones i had.
deep and meaningful one that goes somewhere.
sth i wna feel but have nvr felt.

sure i am independent. i can live on my own two feet and take care of myself pretty well. but then, i'll always feel this emptiness. a part of my heart that is still vacant and begging for some soul to fill e slot. maybe i need a man after all.
who?

a man that understands me and that i understand.
a man that is able to tolerate my nonsense.
a man that can accept my imperfections.
a man that asks for nothing but e sincere love i have for him.
a man that is able to e there for me when i need someone e most.
a man that can trust me and that i can trust.
a man that can make me a better person.

e things in a man i have still yet to find. im choosy. yeah, i know. but these are the things that can make me see, beyond his imperfections, e wonderful person he is. someone i can actually love regardless of his looks, wealth, colour & beliefs.




ooooooooooh my. so flowery, yuni!
(x
haha. but im serious this time.
i aint gna change la.
just gna be more serious and stop fooling around.
i dont wna end up an anak dara tua.
quaquaquaaaaaaa.


1 SYAWAL
SELAMAT HARI RAYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE (:


im gna let e pictures do e talking.

everyone, my lovely siblings(:

my grandmama, young at heart.

e one who came up w my name, my aunt.

my other granny. nanny is mummy's side.

11th oct 2007

went out to buke w a whole lot of tpjc malays.
at ZEENATH Restaurant. funny name.
there were farhan, fir, farid, naf, hidayah, arep, monawir, mus, ihsan, razali, faizul, su, alia, wak, luqman, oni, hfzddn, ahmad, rais, mai and azli.
i ate nasi goreng black pepper (daging). and its nice! (:
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalked a LONG way from still road to geylang bazaar.
but it was a nice walk tho.
nas came later on but left after a while.
we pretty much did nothing but walk and wait ahh.
until we came to singpost.
sat near e fountain and as usual, lepak.
kinda fun tho. more talks.
its like late night already and e sky was dark and pretty.
only left at 12.15.
took e last train w farid, man and alia.
e guys and i dropped at simei and we bought our drinks at 7eleven.
walked from simei all e way back to our estate.
i liked e cool breeze. weehoo. and more talks.
farid left us and we sat under man's block and talked.
i finally reached home at 1.30am. all worn out and tired.


i like love talks.
get me close to friends i never know i cud get close to.
(:


its over!!
PROMO'S OVER.

woooooooooooooh.
enjoy! (:


and yes i actually did.
slept for a full 5 hours right after reaching home.
met up w dear bestie.
had fun chatting but didnt really enjoy getting chased by a downsyndrome dude. brr. still gives me e chills.
buke-d w bestie, her boyfriend/my classmate, luqman, twin and azmi.
odd combination la sia. hahaha. but we have atleast one thing in common- we all know hfzddn(x

the first three left.
chilled w twin and azmi for a while at food culture before walking around cs.
hazlami and alif beng joined in.
decided to play at e arcade.
spend more than an hour and a half there! longest ive been. seriously.
and i beat them in futsal. i scored e most number of goals. wooh!
the hockey game is, as usual, gereks.
and i feel i shud try playing more of e shooting game. it looked cool. especially when watching haz's accurate shootings.
then spend some time at open plaza.
e guys forced me into trying out the spinning thingy.
bargained for only 10secs on it but azmi cheated.
so i had to tolerate it for about a minute.
omg. i cud hardly stand up when e spinning stopped.
i walked like a drunken lady(x haha.
ladidadida...
birthday boy treated us w macs ice-cream.
thank you, again(:
and btw, i still think ure lucky that we didnt pull the prank on you.
itd be fun tho. having ice-cream on your face. haha.

stroooooooooolled to e int.
by then, it was 10plus.
e guys met up w other guys mats.
and i guessed that was my cue to go.
evil twin walked me to my bus. [irony?]

i reached home and i didnt get a single scolding.
wooh. im a happy kid.
huahua.

GEYLANG tmr. i wonder who's coming.
its gonna be fun, i gueeeeeeeess?


some ppl just dont learn.
FUCK.
i thot old ppl shud know how to prioritise.
i guess it doesnt apply to all old ppl.
old = wise ?
sure. now, i think its just a number.











one more thing.
i shall call it the forbidden fruit now.
so near yet so far.
i hate e feeling of not getting what i really want.


i stumbled upon this..

ITS THE REMINISING :)
Thursday, September 20, 2007 @ 4:32 AM

I MISS MY YUNI DARLINGGG!!
life sucks without
having her to bitch talk to sometimes.
its like we're two coherent waves.
always constructive, never destructive.
I LOVE YOU, BABY! <3
one more after promos :)

okayy study
study study.


''Never frown, even when you
are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your
smile.

((:
made me smile.

life has been great.
seriously.

♥ 9:22 PM