ramadhan sudah menjelang..but it doesnt feel like it. at all.
im all stressed up.
conditions at home dont do any help at it.
aggravating my stress level
lagi ader uh.i have to study for my promos.
i have to do well for my subsequent flights.
i have to take care of my brother cos i believe no one can give him e best knowledge. he's very susceptible to bad examples at home. and i guess im e only one responsible enough to correct him. after all, he's still so innocent and young.
i have to tolerate my
bad condition. hmm. im not ill. but there will come a time in e day where i'll cough profusely to an extent that i'll tear or vomit.
i need to save up money to pay up the debt i owe my dad because of my phone bill. but i'll still need another amount of money for my new zealand trip and for my new prepaid card that i feel i have to purchase on my own because my dad is just a bloody selfish ass like my mom.
its hard living w those two people.
yeah sure. they're cool.
they're liberal unlike some muslim parents.
i can come home late.
i can bring guys to my house.
i can go out w guys, for all they care.
they dont force me to wear conservative clothes.
heck! i can even skip prayers if i want to.
but unfortunately, it comes w a cost.
they dont care much about their children, or atleast, the big ones.
sometimes they try to show that they actually do, but u can really see just how much they truly dont care.
they pour all their love and respect to e small ones but throw vulgarities and humiliating words to e older ones. [thats why i need to take care of my lil bro]
they dont really care about our education. wait. they
do. but they only look at e results.
and if u fail to give them what they want, they'll curse us upside down. saying that we dont put enough effort or always watching e tv or just plain stupid.
and guess what, they do NOTHING to help us. yes. they'll watch tv
loudly during our exam period and force us to do our work while doing that. [see why i rather stay up late in school?]
in simple words, they dont give a shit but they want us to do well in our studies. hmmm?
oh.. lets add one more.
my mom can scream like tarzan and jane!
she can be reaaaaaaally irrational sometimes which always leads to a quarrel w me bcos i just refuse to be blamed or put at e wrong when i know im really right.
ok. i betta be off.
this is something i dont tell people.
but i believe ure a bunch of ppl i can trust?
love ya'll!
♥ 11:37 PM
ramadhan sudah menjelang..but it doesnt feel like it. at all.
im all stressed up.
conditions at home dont do any help at it.
aggravating my stress level
lagi ader uh.i have to study for my promos.
i have to do well for my subsequent flights.
i have to take care of my brother cos i believe no one can give him e best knowledge. he's very susceptible to bad examples at home. and i guess im e only one responsible enough to correct him. after all, he's still so innocent and young.
i have to tolerate my
bad condition. hmm. im not ill. but there will come a time in e day where i'll cough profusely to an extent that i'll tear or vomit.
i need to save up money to pay up the debt i owe my dad because of my phone bill. but i'll still need another amount of money for my new zealand trip and for my new prepaid card that i feel i have to purchase on my own because my dad is just a bloody selfish ass like my mom.
its hard living w those two people.
yeah sure. they're cool.
they're liberal unlike some muslim parents.
i can come home late.
i can bring guys to my house.
i can go out w guys, for all they care.
they dont force me to wear conservative clothes.
heck! i can even skip prayers if i want to.
but unfortunately, it comes w a cost.
they dont care much about their children, or atleast, the big ones.
sometimes they try to show that they actually do, but u can really see just how much they truly dont care.
they pour all their love and respect to e small ones but throw vulgarities and humiliating words to e older ones. [thats why i need to take care of my lil bro]
they dont really care about our education. wait. they
do. but they only look at e results.
and if u fail to give them what they want, they'll curse us upside down. saying that we dont put enough effort or always watching e tv or just plain stupid.
and guess what, they do NOTHING to help us. yes. they'll watch tv
loudly during our exam period and force us to do our work while doing that. [see why i rather stay up late in school?]
in simple words, they dont give a shit but they want us to do well in our studies. hmmm?
oh.. lets add one more.
my mom can scream like tarzan and jane!
she can be reaaaaaaally irrational sometimes which always leads to a quarrel w me bcos i just refuse to be blamed or put at e wrong when i know im really right.
ok. i betta be off.
this is something i dont tell people.
but i believe ure a bunch of ppl i can trust?
love ya'll!
♥ 11:37 PM
