Tuesday, August 14, 2007
life's been fine.
you. i cant understand why u still hate me so much.
i thot u understood, u bloody fool.
and uve been giving me the cold shoulders.
to add to that, ur whole family just had to act the same way.
i hope im not exxagerating. i tend to do that when my mind starts to wander and nothing is being done to justify that doubt.
but i could see it. the way u ppl treated me and how ignored i felt.
gosh! why do u have to make it so difficult for me?
its hard enough to let go with the guilt and sorry i felt at that point of time.
and ure adding this extra burden on me.
i know i shouldnt be so effed up about this.
i dont even know why i care so much!
u dont even treat me right anymore.
u made me feel like a worthless bitch that deserves noone.
u made me scared of taking the next bigger step, again.
heck. u brought down my confidence level.
might be by a tinnywinny bit but i felt it.
and i'll crouch at the corner of my room,
thinking if what i decided before was the wrong move.
worrying about the next one.
whether it'll end up the same way- bcos of me.
and then the cycle would go on.
the feelings might be passe, but maybe i still care.
and i strongly think i still do.
if only u'd give me the chance..
let bygones be bygones, imnash.
♥ 11:15 PM
