Monday, May 01, 2006
why do i keep pretending everything's okay?
when actually in reality, its not even close to okay.
wake up each day, giving the best fake smiles ever.
dont u realise it? well, i guess not.
i was feeling so happy one moment,
and something just had to spoil it.
and..
im sick of having to tell people, frankly, im not alright.
cant u tell, even from the most obvious signs, that im un-okay?
am i that stoic?
gaaahhh.
and ive given up on it.
yes. it.
i knew it was useless.
and its still is.
i just dont wanna hold on to sth that'll nvr happen.
besides, im sick of the rollercoaster ride.
its exhilarating for the first few times, i agree.
but... hmmm.
bottom line; ive given up and i wont regret doing it.
well, atleast i hope i wont.
it'll be hard but i'll try.
im really sorry.
♥ 12:47 PM
