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yesternight found out sth..
how you say..
not i want to find out..?
sth likedat.
was pretty embarrassed.
heeeshhh.

hati sakit sia kena tipu!!


niwaes.
did a. maths hmwk in the void deck again.
was alone at first.
then farihin and zikri came down.
then syairah came after meeting her friend.
then it started to get noisy.

decided to go the playground.
met azfar there.
talk talk talk.
waaahh.
farihin talked ALOT of rubbish.
im sooo sorry u had to hear all that, azfar.
heeshhh.
she's just 8 and is already exposed to those kinda stuff.
x))


hahaha.
ouhhh!
one funny incident..
we went to 7eleven,
i wanna take out a drink from the fridge,
and farihin didnt see the glass door,
and bang into it!
wakakaka.
had a great laugh sia.
u should have seen it for yerself.

it was funn.
tho awhile.
and yeah.
i nearly forgot.

THANK YOU AZFAR. again.
i like it soooo much.
hanged it outside the window already.
=))


miss butterflies. new nick!
x))



hmm.
i've been thinking about
this new year's resolutions.

1. be more fit! exercise more. do jogs and stuff. be more active in PE lessons. and exercise! but no sit ups for me. widens my abdomen. blergh.

2. LOSE weight! im getting fat and heavy. i need to eat more fruits. less fast food and oily too. weigh self every meal. i need alotta people's help here. i get tempted REAL easy.
so maybe instead of one bar of chocolate a day, i make it a bar of chocolate a week..?

3. no slacking! o'levels examination is very near. i need to concentrate. regular revision but most importantly consistent. right mel? hehh. no no slack. PAY ATTENTION in class.

so far this is it.
gonna think for more.
for less important ones like..
go for a dance class..?
ehehe.


metal!!
haha.
so random. x))


dahh. i gotta finish my homeworkS.
haaaiiii.



signed in to my blogger account.
clicked create under posting.
and then..
i seem to forget all the things i wanted to rant out.
wait. i did not forget the things. its just that i donno
how to.. write it all down.
i cant seem to type it out.

thats why.
i came here. and rant about this instead.
alot of things happened these few days.
but i dont cant type it down.

-------
school is coming back.
and ill be in secondary four.
the last year. and the most important
year in secondary school.

o-levels.
the big examination.
this will determine where i will go next.
junior college. or polytechnic. and in some cases,
private schools or ITE.

im aiming for the highest,
no doubt about it.
not just for the sake of my family.
but for my own good.
i want to be sure of what i want to be in the future.
i dont want my future to be a blur.
i want to be someone i really wanna be.
but for now, im not sure what i wanna grow up to be.

as much as i want this to be over and done with,
im, at the same time, scared and nervous.
im sure all the others are too.
im scared that i will not be ready when the time comes.
i really wanna do my best.
but the itsy bitsy tiny feeling of not making it
scares the shit out of me. seriously.

i can tell all of you,
at this moment,
i am not ready.
i dont even feel ready.

i just pray to Allah that when the papers' infront of me,
i'll be calm and not panicky. cos i'll be ready
and when reading the questions,
i'll be able to answer them with ease. cos i'll be ready
and when handing in the papers,
i'll feel confident of passing it. cos i'll be ready
by then.

and after all that are done.
i dont have the feeling of guilt
when having fun.
bcos i deserve it.

=))
5 days seems long kann?
hehh.

it started when we were younger.
my boo.



wakakakka.

today was generally fun.

wait!
before anything.
i wanna say sth.
i looooveeeeeeeee my K750i!
MP3! fantastic. excellent. GREAT sound system.
2megapixel. waaayyyyy better than 1.3 meg. x)
zoom 4x. can change effect.
powerrrrrrrrr!
i loooovvvvvvvvveeee my phone!!!



so here goes today..


earlier today..
found that a certain someone is not DECENT.
issh. 'a good boy' [in frenster profile] konon.
why would u want my testicles when im dead??
a lil reminder : im a GIRL! girls dont have testicles.
heesh.

later that afternoon..
went up to shrtl's place.
did a lil chemistry.
ate BROWNIES with VANILLA ice-cream and chocolate fudge.
hooohoo! soo soo nice!
see now that's delicious!

convinced shrtl's mom to let her crash my place.
yay me!
im so good at persuading! ehehe.
even zahid's starting to think that WWE's fake. x))

so later in the evening..
we headed to my place.
sat there for awhile.
and i realised we were supposed
to meet some people.
went down to mackies.
met azfar and his partner-in-crime, kamarul.

i think u might have read this in shrtl's blog,
tk padan kecik! x)
ishishish.
buat lawak nombor satu! wakakaka.

yadayadayada.
the gays decided to got to the playground.
sat there for some time.
talked crap.
*chicken little song stuck in my head*
and more crap.
apek digging his nose. x))
and more CRAP.

to tell ya the truth,
i had fun.
laughlaughlaugh.

gays.

later later in the middle of the night..
decided to go to the 7eleven store.
i bought this bag of chips and shrtl bought lollies.
walked up to the multi-storey carpark and hanged ard there.
walked from one side of the carpark to the other.

no matter how brave i wanna b,e i got scared.
wanted to tell shrtl this ghost story.
and ended up making myself frightened.
i grabbed shrtl's hand so tightly. x))

now..
im here.
blogging.
while others, who are still awake,
talking crap in my brothers room.
so i dont wanna miss anymore fun.
i think i shall stop here.


today's words:
balcony.
anti-phobia. for the last time, lactose intolerant! keep that in mind.

theres always that one person
that will always have your heart
u never see it coming cause
ure blinded from the start
noe that ure that one for me
its clear for everyone to see
oooh baby.

you will always be my boo.
=))

till theennnnnnn.



today i went to my old neighbourhood.
to get to the 'cool' playground
it wasnt that far from my new one.
about 5 - 10 minutes walk.

just as i entered the estate,
all the bittersweet memories of my childhood life came rushing to my head.
i lived there since i was K2.
it was so hard for me to leave it.
really hard. really really.
but sometimes, we just have to let it go and move on.

so we were walking.
me, ika, lisa, e-in and yana.
and we started reminiscing.
remember that time when we...
i had too much memories there.
mostly with my friends.
my primary school friends.
we used to rush back from school,
changed to home clothes
and meet at 'the' playground.
haha. how fun it was.

i sat at the bench just thinking about it.
while the others played.
smiling to myself and sighing.
at that moment,
i wanted all the friends
i used to hang out with,
to just sit together and talk.
just talk. only talk. about the old times.


this is to all my childhood friends.
i wanna say thank you so very much. you guys are the reasons why i cherished my childhood times. i miss you guys so much. i want that time again when we didnt mind dirt on our faces, running all over the place barefooted and buried 'treasures' in the sand. heh. i love those days. thank you again!

i miss them all.



since people are listing their recently favourite songs,
i think ill do that too.

top 20 songs stuck in my head:

1. If Everyone Cared - NIckelback
2. Scars - Papa Roach (still my favourite tho)
3. Next Contestant - Nickelback
4. Get Low - Lil Kim feat. 50 cent
5. Clap Back - Ja Rule
6. Welcome To Wherever You Are - Bon Jovi
7. Far Away - Nickelback
8. Right Thurr - Chingy
9. Just The Girl - The Click Five
10. Crazy - Simple Plan
11. My Humps - Black Eyed Peas
12. I Still - Backstreet Boys
13. Soul Survivor - Young Jeezy feat. Akon
14. Have A Nice Day - Bon Jovi
15. Run It - Chris Brown
16. Stickwitu - Pussycat Dolls
17. Fix You - Coldplay
18. Believe Me - Fort Minor
19. We Be Burnin' - Sean Paul
20. Photograph - Nickelback

so there you go..



i got tagged to do a quiz by limin.
so here it goes..

1. post 5 weird/random stuff about yourself
2. at the end, list the names of 5 people who you want next to do this.

hmmmm...


1. i dont like hate looking at blood and gory stuff. that's why in some movies, when there's fighting and blood being shed, i dont watch. oh! once, i was looking at happytreefriends and i nearly vomitted. and i cant believe some people think its cute. blerghh! and thats one of the reasons i dont take biology.


2. it is a rare chance of you seeing me cry. i dont cry infront of people. i dont really know why. but its just it. i can tell people im crying. but i dont cry infront of them or even on the phone.


3. i dont drink gassy drinks, for example, coke and pepsi. ive been telling everyone about it, but i still get people offering me gassy drinks. so keep this in mind! i hate to repeat the same thing over and over again. btw, u may ask why i dont drink. well, obviously i dont hate it. i just cant drink it. my mom never, in my whole childhood life, let me try those gassy drinks. only me [my other siblings love gassy drinks]. so when i wanna try it now, i get dizzy and stuff.
and, one more thing, dont even try to prank me with it. i can get reallly mad!


4. i never fall in love before. i mean, with a guy. not even now. its hard for me to fall in love. i did a personality test [ rmb shrtl?]. -"you'll do anything for love, but you wont fall for it easily."


5. i wanna be alot of occupation. hehh. i wanna be a pilot, fashion designer, businesswoman, stewardess, professional dancer, radio dj and lecturer! hehe. alot huh. sometimes its a good thing that i have lotsa choices. but now, ive come to realise that i am not sure which one i REALLY wanna be. so confused right now. hehhh.


so there you go. 5 random and weird things about me.
the five ppl that i want to do next are..
1. sharatul
2. azfar
3. haliim
4. ika
5. farah

yeah. better do it kay!
=))

im tryna forget it.
but its too hard.



confusion
confusion

heesh.
hate it sooo much.
daym!

I AM CONFUSED!
really really am.

DRL.
you get me?
i noe u dont.
but someone does.
and only that person can noe.

ouhh daym!
confused!
eeeeergh!
hate that when that
happens.


i bought a sweater
at FOX!
50% discount!
hooohoo!
love it!



hoohoo.
today had so much fun.

went to suntec with cousins.
ayu, dayah and nadiah.
non of us brought enough money.
wakakkaa.

had to ask my uncle to bring down some cash.
we ate at macs for lunch. and wanted to leave for esplanade.
skali! we saw randall from 'spin' and lionel lewis!
wahhh. was so freaking shocked arhh.

then that doofus cousin of mine, AYU,
shouted 'RANDALL' out loud. wahhh.
damn embarrassed.

went up the escalator.
and decided to go back down to ask for autographs.
unfortunately,
our courage fell and decided not to.

went in the toilet.
had our hair done and makeup and stuff.
went out and saw randall and lionel coming towards us.
we were so scared,
we ran to the lift to hide our faces.
we laughed to our hearts content. x)

lionel is REALLY REALLY TALL!!!
hoohooo. tall guys.
hoooo!
wakakaka.

so that's done.
headed to esplanade.
went to the garden up at the rooftop.
it was SOO nice.
so freaking nice arhh the view.
but was so hot. so we didnt stay long.
nyehhh. would wanna stay tho.

so..
we dropped at orchard and went to far east.
more window shopping.
one shop after another.
hehehe.

go out of the mall
and headed to heeren.
skali got this 20+ yrs old woman
approach me.
i thot donation or what so i said im in a rush.
but she kept walking beside me.
found out she's from a model agency.
blablabla. asked some info.
said she'll call me and wanted me to come down.
wadahell.

blablabla.
got to heeren.
looked at more shops.
wahhh.
i practically drooled looking
at the clothes.
hoohoo!
if only i have money sehh.
and i saw this leather cuff.
so freaking NICE!
ergh. i wanna get a job sia.
i want MONEY!
x))

niwaes.
did a lil more walking and headed home.
and it was 7.30pm, ard there.
mrt was so damn packed.
my freaking legs are so damn painful sia.
only felt it went we were heading back home.
sheeshhhh!
painnn.

but nevertheless,
today was really fun.
enjoyed every bit of it.
=))


iwannabeTALL!
hahah.
so random kann.
but wadehell.



haii.

been so busy lately.
and too many people.
so i cant really blog.

kobes hayad

well.
cousins came!
hoohooo!
so so happy!
they're all so big now.
and tall!
PAAANNNAAASSSS!
x))

alotta stuff happened in this few days.

on thursday (08.12.2005),
playground!
climb climb jump! x)
at night.
did sth so stupid.
but fun at the same time.
right shrtl? hehh.
count stars

on friday.
playground!
met sepal and haliim.
more climbing.
hoohooo!
i got my tribal!
yayayyay!
thankew so much yeah.

i dont feel like blogging now.
hehhh.
getting really bored of it.

far away song stuck in my head.
but i dont want too.
hmpf.







nightmares SUCK!

one left me weeping when i woke up today.
i lost someone i loved so so much..
so very much in that nightmare.

it felt so real. really real.
i could feel my tears rolling down my eyes.
i could feel myself dropping to the ground in despair.
i could feel my heart breaking into tiny pieces and knew for sure
that it could never be mended.


just..
imagine a very chaotic situation.
people running here and there. screaming.
dinosaurs and flying animals were everywhere.
it was the end of the world.
i was terrified.
i was trembling in fear.
i was panicking.
but no one was there to calm me down.
i could feel my heart beating so fast.

i looked everywhere and all my loved ones were there.
except for one. i asked myself when i woke up. why?
out of a sudden,
a picture came to my head.
that person drowned in the sea when hit by a big UFO.
ive lost that someone.
i was crying and crying.

but something in my heart told me
that even in the slightest chance,
that someone could be alive.
so i looked for that someone.

i searched.
and i searched.
i practically ran everywhere, whimpering,
shouting that person's name.
i nearly gave up. and nearly lost my breath.

i fell to the ground.
because i know it was useless
searching for that someone that's already dead.
and somebody picked me up
by the hand, saying, 'dont give up now'.


and then i woke up.


kal ho na ho.
=_(









wheeee~

shop shop SHOP!

hoohhooo.

i like alotta stuff there.
TOPSHOP!
Fox!
MANGO!
HMV!
arrgghhh..
why why DIDNT bring enuff money.


haii.
but wadahell.
it was fun shopping with shrtl.
x) really FUN.
enjoyed every minute of it.

two GOONS joined us later.
sepal and haliim.
u guys supposed to tell us
something ryytt..? hmmm?

ate at marina square.
long john silver!
long time no eat there sehh.
x)) milo freeze! haaaa.
nicenice.
i wudve bought another milo freeze
if not for my COUGH! erghh. forgot to bring medicine. x)
we shud have shopped longer
sehhhh. haaii. and brought more
monneey! x))

the day seemed so short.
haii.
stood the WHOLE way from
city hall to tampines station.
heesh. but i heard SCARS.
hoohoo! =)
i tear my heart open, i sew myself shut.
my weakness is that i care too muchh. hooo!
sepal sent me to int.
got back home and guess whatt??
i had to go out again.
heeshh. my frucking feet
are so soree with all the walking.
and now go out again. heesh.

niwaes.
walked around tampines mall.
got at toys r us.
sibs bought toys.
i want tooo! budden im broke.
haaii.

blablabla.
reached back home.
parked the car..
and my sibs and i,
went to the very top of the
multi-storey carpark annd...
SHOUTED to our hearts content!'
seriously!
it was soooo nice.

i did once with my old pals.
and it was raining.
so nice tauu. haaah =)

old times.
old times.
=))

yesternight found out sth..
how you say..
not i want to find out..?
sth likedat.
was pretty embarrassed.
heeeshhh.

hati sakit sia kena tipu!!


niwaes.
did a. maths hmwk in the void deck again.
was alone at first.
then farihin and zikri came down.
then syairah came after meeting her friend.
then it started to get noisy.

decided to go the playground.
met azfar there.
talk talk talk.
waaahh.
farihin talked ALOT of rubbish.
im sooo sorry u had to hear all that, azfar.
heeshhh.
she's just 8 and is already exposed to those kinda stuff.
x))


hahaha.
ouhhh!
one funny incident..
we went to 7eleven,
i wanna take out a drink from the fridge,
and farihin didnt see the glass door,
and bang into it!
wakakaka.
had a great laugh sia.
u should have seen it for yerself.

it was funn.
tho awhile.
and yeah.
i nearly forgot.

THANK YOU AZFAR. again.
i like it soooo much.
hanged it outside the window already.
=))


miss butterflies. new nick!
x))


hmm.
i've been thinking about
this new year's resolutions.

1. be more fit! exercise more. do jogs and stuff. be more active in PE lessons. and exercise! but no sit ups for me. widens my abdomen. blergh.

2. LOSE weight! im getting fat and heavy. i need to eat more fruits. less fast food and oily too. weigh self every meal. i need alotta people's help here. i get tempted REAL easy.
so maybe instead of one bar of chocolate a day, i make it a bar of chocolate a week..?

3. no slacking! o'levels examination is very near. i need to concentrate. regular revision but most importantly consistent. right mel? hehh. no no slack. PAY ATTENTION in class.

so far this is it.
gonna think for more.
for less important ones like..
go for a dance class..?
ehehe.


metal!!
haha.
so random. x))


dahh. i gotta finish my homeworkS.
haaaiiii.


signed in to my blogger account.
clicked create under posting.
and then..
i seem to forget all the things i wanted to rant out.
wait. i did not forget the things. its just that i donno
how to.. write it all down.
i cant seem to type it out.

thats why.
i came here. and rant about this instead.
alot of things happened these few days.
but i dont cant type it down.

-------
school is coming back.
and ill be in secondary four.
the last year. and the most important
year in secondary school.

o-levels.
the big examination.
this will determine where i will go next.
junior college. or polytechnic. and in some cases,
private schools or ITE.

im aiming for the highest,
no doubt about it.
not just for the sake of my family.
but for my own good.
i want to be sure of what i want to be in the future.
i dont want my future to be a blur.
i want to be someone i really wanna be.
but for now, im not sure what i wanna grow up to be.

as much as i want this to be over and done with,
im, at the same time, scared and nervous.
im sure all the others are too.
im scared that i will not be ready when the time comes.
i really wanna do my best.
but the itsy bitsy tiny feeling of not making it
scares the shit out of me. seriously.

i can tell all of you,
at this moment,
i am not ready.
i dont even feel ready.

i just pray to Allah that when the papers' infront of me,
i'll be calm and not panicky. cos i'll be ready
and when reading the questions,
i'll be able to answer them with ease. cos i'll be ready
and when handing in the papers,
i'll feel confident of passing it. cos i'll be ready
by then.

and after all that are done.
i dont have the feeling of guilt
when having fun.
bcos i deserve it.

=))
5 days seems long kann?
hehh.

it started when we were younger.
my boo.


wakakakka.

today was generally fun.

wait!
before anything.
i wanna say sth.
i looooveeeeeeeee my K750i!
MP3! fantastic. excellent. GREAT sound system.
2megapixel. waaayyyyy better than 1.3 meg. x)
zoom 4x. can change effect.
powerrrrrrrrr!
i loooovvvvvvvvveeee my phone!!!



so here goes today..


earlier today..
found that a certain someone is not DECENT.
issh. 'a good boy' [in frenster profile] konon.
why would u want my testicles when im dead??
a lil reminder : im a GIRL! girls dont have testicles.
heesh.

later that afternoon..
went up to shrtl's place.
did a lil chemistry.
ate BROWNIES with VANILLA ice-cream and chocolate fudge.
hooohoo! soo soo nice!
see now that's delicious!

convinced shrtl's mom to let her crash my place.
yay me!
im so good at persuading! ehehe.
even zahid's starting to think that WWE's fake. x))

so later in the evening..
we headed to my place.
sat there for awhile.
and i realised we were supposed
to meet some people.
went down to mackies.
met azfar and his partner-in-crime, kamarul.

i think u might have read this in shrtl's blog,
tk padan kecik! x)
ishishish.
buat lawak nombor satu! wakakaka.

yadayadayada.
the gays decided to got to the playground.
sat there for some time.
talked crap.
*chicken little song stuck in my head*
and more crap.
apek digging his nose. x))
and more CRAP.

to tell ya the truth,
i had fun.
laughlaughlaugh.

gays.

later later in the middle of the night..
decided to go to the 7eleven store.
i bought this bag of chips and shrtl bought lollies.
walked up to the multi-storey carpark and hanged ard there.
walked from one side of the carpark to the other.

no matter how brave i wanna b,e i got scared.
wanted to tell shrtl this ghost story.
and ended up making myself frightened.
i grabbed shrtl's hand so tightly. x))

now..
im here.
blogging.
while others, who are still awake,
talking crap in my brothers room.
so i dont wanna miss anymore fun.
i think i shall stop here.


today's words:
balcony.
anti-phobia. for the last time, lactose intolerant! keep that in mind.

theres always that one person
that will always have your heart
u never see it coming cause
ure blinded from the start
noe that ure that one for me
its clear for everyone to see
oooh baby.

you will always be my boo.
=))

till theennnnnnn.


today i went to my old neighbourhood.
to get to the 'cool' playground
it wasnt that far from my new one.
about 5 - 10 minutes walk.

just as i entered the estate,
all the bittersweet memories of my childhood life came rushing to my head.
i lived there since i was K2.
it was so hard for me to leave it.
really hard. really really.
but sometimes, we just have to let it go and move on.

so we were walking.
me, ika, lisa, e-in and yana.
and we started reminiscing.
remember that time when we...
i had too much memories there.
mostly with my friends.
my primary school friends.
we used to rush back from school,
changed to home clothes
and meet at 'the' playground.
haha. how fun it was.

i sat at the bench just thinking about it.
while the others played.
smiling to myself and sighing.
at that moment,
i wanted all the friends
i used to hang out with,
to just sit together and talk.
just talk. only talk. about the old times.


this is to all my childhood friends.
i wanna say thank you so very much. you guys are the reasons why i cherished my childhood times. i miss you guys so much. i want that time again when we didnt mind dirt on our faces, running all over the place barefooted and buried 'treasures' in the sand. heh. i love those days. thank you again!

i miss them all.


since people are listing their recently favourite songs,
i think ill do that too.

top 20 songs stuck in my head:

1. If Everyone Cared - NIckelback
2. Scars - Papa Roach (still my favourite tho)
3. Next Contestant - Nickelback
4. Get Low - Lil Kim feat. 50 cent
5. Clap Back - Ja Rule
6. Welcome To Wherever You Are - Bon Jovi
7. Far Away - Nickelback
8. Right Thurr - Chingy
9. Just The Girl - The Click Five
10. Crazy - Simple Plan
11. My Humps - Black Eyed Peas
12. I Still - Backstreet Boys
13. Soul Survivor - Young Jeezy feat. Akon
14. Have A Nice Day - Bon Jovi
15. Run It - Chris Brown
16. Stickwitu - Pussycat Dolls
17. Fix You - Coldplay
18. Believe Me - Fort Minor
19. We Be Burnin' - Sean Paul
20. Photograph - Nickelback

so there you go..


i got tagged to do a quiz by limin.
so here it goes..

1. post 5 weird/random stuff about yourself
2. at the end, list the names of 5 people who you want next to do this.

hmmmm...


1. i dont like hate looking at blood and gory stuff. that's why in some movies, when there's fighting and blood being shed, i dont watch. oh! once, i was looking at happytreefriends and i nearly vomitted. and i cant believe some people think its cute. blerghh! and thats one of the reasons i dont take biology.


2. it is a rare chance of you seeing me cry. i dont cry infront of people. i dont really know why. but its just it. i can tell people im crying. but i dont cry infront of them or even on the phone.


3. i dont drink gassy drinks, for example, coke and pepsi. ive been telling everyone about it, but i still get people offering me gassy drinks. so keep this in mind! i hate to repeat the same thing over and over again. btw, u may ask why i dont drink. well, obviously i dont hate it. i just cant drink it. my mom never, in my whole childhood life, let me try those gassy drinks. only me [my other siblings love gassy drinks]. so when i wanna try it now, i get dizzy and stuff.
and, one more thing, dont even try to prank me with it. i can get reallly mad!


4. i never fall in love before. i mean, with a guy. not even now. its hard for me to fall in love. i did a personality test [ rmb shrtl?]. -"you'll do anything for love, but you wont fall for it easily."


5. i wanna be alot of occupation. hehh. i wanna be a pilot, fashion designer, businesswoman, stewardess, professional dancer, radio dj and lecturer! hehe. alot huh. sometimes its a good thing that i have lotsa choices. but now, ive come to realise that i am not sure which one i REALLY wanna be. so confused right now. hehhh.


so there you go. 5 random and weird things about me.
the five ppl that i want to do next are..
1. sharatul
2. azfar
3. haliim
4. ika
5. farah

yeah. better do it kay!
=))

im tryna forget it.
but its too hard.


confusion
confusion

heesh.
hate it sooo much.
daym!

I AM CONFUSED!
really really am.

DRL.
you get me?
i noe u dont.
but someone does.
and only that person can noe.

ouhh daym!
confused!
eeeeergh!
hate that when that
happens.


i bought a sweater
at FOX!
50% discount!
hooohoo!
love it!


hoohoo.
today had so much fun.

went to suntec with cousins.
ayu, dayah and nadiah.
non of us brought enough money.
wakakkaa.

had to ask my uncle to bring down some cash.
we ate at macs for lunch. and wanted to leave for esplanade.
skali! we saw randall from 'spin' and lionel lewis!
wahhh. was so freaking shocked arhh.

then that doofus cousin of mine, AYU,
shouted 'RANDALL' out loud. wahhh.
damn embarrassed.

went up the escalator.
and decided to go back down to ask for autographs.
unfortunately,
our courage fell and decided not to.

went in the toilet.
had our hair done and makeup and stuff.
went out and saw randall and lionel coming towards us.
we were so scared,
we ran to the lift to hide our faces.
we laughed to our hearts content. x)

lionel is REALLY REALLY TALL!!!
hoohooo. tall guys.
hoooo!
wakakaka.

so that's done.
headed to esplanade.
went to the garden up at the rooftop.
it was SOO nice.
so freaking nice arhh the view.
but was so hot. so we didnt stay long.
nyehhh. would wanna stay tho.

so..
we dropped at orchard and went to far east.
more window shopping.
one shop after another.
hehehe.

go out of the mall
and headed to heeren.
skali got this 20+ yrs old woman
approach me.
i thot donation or what so i said im in a rush.
but she kept walking beside me.
found out she's from a model agency.
blablabla. asked some info.
said she'll call me and wanted me to come down.
wadahell.

blablabla.
got to heeren.
looked at more shops.
wahhh.
i practically drooled looking
at the clothes.
hoohoo!
if only i have money sehh.
and i saw this leather cuff.
so freaking NICE!
ergh. i wanna get a job sia.
i want MONEY!
x))

niwaes.
did a lil more walking and headed home.
and it was 7.30pm, ard there.
mrt was so damn packed.
my freaking legs are so damn painful sia.
only felt it went we were heading back home.
sheeshhhh!
painnn.

but nevertheless,
today was really fun.
enjoyed every bit of it.
=))


iwannabeTALL!
hahah.
so random kann.
but wadehell.


haii.

been so busy lately.
and too many people.
so i cant really blog.

kobes hayad

well.
cousins came!
hoohooo!
so so happy!
they're all so big now.
and tall!
PAAANNNAAASSSS!
x))

alotta stuff happened in this few days.

on thursday (08.12.2005),
playground!
climb climb jump! x)
at night.
did sth so stupid.
but fun at the same time.
right shrtl? hehh.
count stars

on friday.
playground!
met sepal and haliim.
more climbing.
hoohooo!
i got my tribal!
yayayyay!
thankew so much yeah.

i dont feel like blogging now.
hehhh.
getting really bored of it.

far away song stuck in my head.
but i dont want too.
hmpf.





nightmares SUCK!

one left me weeping when i woke up today.
i lost someone i loved so so much..
so very much in that nightmare.

it felt so real. really real.
i could feel my tears rolling down my eyes.
i could feel myself dropping to the ground in despair.
i could feel my heart breaking into tiny pieces and knew for sure
that it could never be mended.


just..
imagine a very chaotic situation.
people running here and there. screaming.
dinosaurs and flying animals were everywhere.
it was the end of the world.
i was terrified.
i was trembling in fear.
i was panicking.
but no one was there to calm me down.
i could feel my heart beating so fast.

i looked everywhere and all my loved ones were there.
except for one. i asked myself when i woke up. why?
out of a sudden,
a picture came to my head.
that person drowned in the sea when hit by a big UFO.
ive lost that someone.
i was crying and crying.

but something in my heart told me
that even in the slightest chance,
that someone could be alive.
so i looked for that someone.

i searched.
and i searched.
i practically ran everywhere, whimpering,
shouting that person's name.
i nearly gave up. and nearly lost my breath.

i fell to the ground.
because i know it was useless
searching for that someone that's already dead.
and somebody picked me up
by the hand, saying, 'dont give up now'.


and then i woke up.


kal ho na ho.
=_(







wheeee~

shop shop SHOP!

hoohhooo.

i like alotta stuff there.
TOPSHOP!
Fox!
MANGO!
HMV!
arrgghhh..
why why DIDNT bring enuff money.


haii.
but wadahell.
it was fun shopping with shrtl.
x) really FUN.
enjoyed every minute of it.

two GOONS joined us later.
sepal and haliim.
u guys supposed to tell us
something ryytt..? hmmm?

ate at marina square.
long john silver!
long time no eat there sehh.
x)) milo freeze! haaaa.
nicenice.
i wudve bought another milo freeze
if not for my COUGH! erghh. forgot to bring medicine. x)
we shud have shopped longer
sehhhh. haaii. and brought more
monneey! x))

the day seemed so short.
haii.
stood the WHOLE way from
city hall to tampines station.
heesh. but i heard SCARS.
hoohoo! =)
i tear my heart open, i sew myself shut.
my weakness is that i care too muchh. hooo!
sepal sent me to int.
got back home and guess whatt??
i had to go out again.
heeshh. my frucking feet
are so soree with all the walking.
and now go out again. heesh.

niwaes.
walked around tampines mall.
got at toys r us.
sibs bought toys.
i want tooo! budden im broke.
haaii.

blablabla.
reached back home.
parked the car..
and my sibs and i,
went to the very top of the
multi-storey carpark annd...
SHOUTED to our hearts content!'
seriously!
it was soooo nice.

i did once with my old pals.
and it was raining.
so nice tauu. haaah =)

old times.
old times.
=))