Monday, November 21, 2005
this is the third post for today.
but the other two was about yesterdays.
i've been thinking alot recently.
and i REALLY mean alot.
stuff that mattered.
today,
i realised sth about my dreams.
a stupid discover but still...
i think and i think and i think.
non-stop.
my MISTAKES..
things i shudnt've done.u sure im leading him on?but it was unintentionally.
O-levels.
how near it seems.
and how shrtl scared me when she said,
'haii. its been four days since i studied.'
i didnt even study in the holidayslahh.
you noe pretty much that i cant study when
im in the holiday mood.
tried once, open the book, read the first sentence
and closed it back. ishhh.
my family.
dont wanna get so personal.
so i'll just keep it to myself
thinking of running away..?
not that my life is not good enough.
just that i wanna get rid of the problems
im scared of it.
looking at it and tryna solve it gives me the creeps.
u can say imma coward?
and this is not even half of it.
i wanna tell it to somebody
but i dont wanna burden them.
i noe they're always there for me when
i need them. but i couldnt see myself
crying infront of them. i dont dare.
not even in a life-threatening matter.
i only cry to myself.
why you may ask?
cos..
it's just it.
i dont like crying infront of anyone.
im scared of crying infront of anyone. not even over the phone.
coward huh?
*nodds*
♥ 2:22 PM
