Tuesday, October 25, 2005
bahh. im just gonna rant shite here.
so dont bother reading this entry.
ergh. ERGH!
that's the only phrase i've been repeating
since..
ergh!
there's sOo much to think about right now.
and they're so negative.
bahh. if im suicidal i could have killed myself by now.
cut my wrists, jump down from 25 storeys-high building,
anything to make these stupid feelings (mind, its plural) go away.
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and i dont feel like talking to you anymore.
you could be anyone, not necessarily YOU.
get me? [im talking rubbish.]
im sick of waiting for you.
waiting for something i noe that wouldnt come!
ergh.
ERGH.
wasting my frigging time.
and all i get is bullshite.
bullshite!
im just not gonna talk to you anymore.
talk the way we used to,
until you realise it.
u know how frustating it is to...
damn you!
why?
why?
just open your eyes already.
why cant you see?
cause your eyes is too small?
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i cant believe i have such a friend like you
screw you!
u think i never realise what you've been doing.
i know what you've done.
you got rid of the friends i called friends last time.
what did i do wrong?
tell me!
*screams*
ergh!
you talk behind my back.u know how frustating it is to...
damn you!
why?
why?
just open your eyes already.
why cant you see?
cause your eyes is too small?
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i cant believe i have such a friend like you
screw you!
u think i never realise what you've been doing.
i know what you've done.
you got rid of the friends i called friends last time.
what did i do wrong?
tell me!
*screams*
ergh!
and infront of me you tried to be there for me.
well, wake up sucker!
you think you're all so good.
high marks dont get you anywhere
if you have such a black heart.
because of you she doesnt trust me anymore.
and guess what? i dont need you two.
you're the only one i trust so much in school.
those were the words you said to me.
and to think that i used to fall that,
i must be really dumb not to realise that last time.
im not gonna waste my time with you.
go away!
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no words could describe what im feeling right now.
sad, angry, mad, furious, confused?
know that kinda feeling?
those feelings mixed into one.
when you dont know what you're really feeling.
but you just do.
and all you want is to get rid of it.
as fast as you can.
and it is sOo much harder to hide it.
i've tried my very best.
and if i leave traces here and there,
forgive me.
i never meant to.
and if i've been really rude,
forgive me too.
it's just so hard.
i wanna run away.
dont really have a good reason for it.
but i just want to.
juls, u can come with me if you want to.
*winks*
now if you think this bullshite is not me
than you dont KNOW me.
im not just a goofy, happy-go-lucky person u always think i am.
i can be really serious went it comes to certain stuff.
and im pretty serious about this.
and now all that is done,
fuck off!
♥ 12:07 PM
