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went to geylang yesterday.

omgoodness.
dominated by mats and minahs.
tatooed, with skimpy clothes and babies.

sheesh.
what's becoming with this malay population.
ish ish ish.


doing anything as they like.
MY GOODNESS.
grow up and realise man!
you're not living forever.
better make good use of it.
you only live once.
and that's it.

niwaes,
bought baju kurung and other girlie stuffs.
=))
wheee. i like my necklace.


bahh.
dont feel like ranting.
so nytes.







i have written a false information.
when it was 21st ramadan,
it's 8 more days of fasting [not 7].
so yarh.
sorry.

*sob sob*
wished it was.
but still...







by the way,
i wanna say happy 15th birthday to dhuha.
sorry i didnt get you anything now,
but soon, kay?
*winks*
can wait right.

so this dedication is to you.
dhuha. you're the lamest and goofiest person i've ever seen! you make my days. and i wanna thank you for that. and without you, i wont be this goofy and kental person i am now. i think i would've been those no-smile people, geddit? nvm. you're a year older now. any resolutions? hmm. i wonder what eh. i wanna eat the chocolate cheese birthday cake! hmph *folds arm*
niwaes, what shud i get for you? megazord? more cds? earrings? i wanna make it a memorable one. like the one you bought for me. cause nobody else would've bought me a wind-up toy. *BIG smile* thankew!
so, my last words, work towards your dreams. dont give up, aite! and plan your finances well. *winks* btw, i've come to realise media is a very bad influence. gosh! i used to want to be an advertiser.


bye!
happy birthday, dhuha!



bahh. im just gonna rant shite here.
so dont bother reading this entry.

ergh. ERGH!
that's the only phrase i've been repeating
since..

ergh!
there's sOo much to think about right now.
and they're so negative.
bahh. if im suicidal i could have killed myself by now.
cut my wrists, jump down from 25 storeys-high building,
anything to make these stupid feelings (mind, its plural) go away.
__________

and i dont feel like talking to you anymore.
you could be anyone, not necessarily YOU.
get me? [im talking rubbish.]

im sick of waiting for you.
waiting for something i noe that wouldnt come!

ergh.
ERGH.
wasting my frigging time.

and all i get is bullshite.
bullshite!

im just not gonna talk to you anymore.
talk the way we used to,
you talk behind my back.
and infront of me you tried to be there for me.
well, wake up sucker!
you think you're all so good.
high marks dont get you anywhere
if you have such a black heart.
because of you she doesnt trust me anymore.
and guess what? i dont need you two.

you're the only one i trust so much in school.
those were the words you said to me.
and to think that i used to fall that,
i must be really dumb not to realise that last time.
im not gonna waste my time with you.
go away!
__________

no words could describe what im feeling right now.
sad, angry, mad, furious, confused?
know that kinda feeling?
those feelings mixed into one.
when you dont know what you're really feeling.
but you just do.
and all you want is to get rid of it.
as fast as you can.

and it is sOo much harder to hide it.
i've tried my very best.
and if i leave traces here and there,
forgive me.
i never meant to.
and if i've been really rude,
forgive me too.
it's just so hard.


i wanna run away.
dont really have a good reason for it.
but i just want to.
juls, u can come with me if you want to.
*winks*

now if you think this bullshite is not me
than you dont KNOW me.
im not just a goofy, happy-go-lucky person u always think i am.
i can be really serious went it comes to certain stuff.
and im pretty serious about this.


and now all that is done,
fuck off!



so reluctant to go to school.

went to see shrtl first before heading to school.


and i was late btw,
thank goodness they were
still collecting the papers.


had CIP with farah.
we had s0o much fun!
haha. belanja pun banyak eh.
free shopping. ~whee


and that other girl
was such a weird person.
poking holes on boxes,
dancing with pieces of cloth
and sprinkling glitter on the floor.

this is weird but true.
and the thing is
she hardly spoke to us.
so it looks more freaky.


bahh. nice day.
nice day.
*nodds*



shrtl

dont cry. never cry.
went im not there
to hug you.
to comfort you.

remember. i'll ALWAYS be
there for you. through thick and thin.
i'm always with you 100%.


and you wont get in trouble.
just tell them the truth.
hopefully, with a lil' bit of
miracle, they'll understand.


and they WONT kill you lah.
haha.


lurveyoualways.

besties forever. =_)







got my results

i dont wanna talk about it!

dont ever ask me how it was
or anything concerning it!

im so blardy disappointed with my results.
i know i could do better.


i wanna cry?
i never do.
i donno how to.


disappointed? yes!
obviously.

i feel like jumping down from a building =).
dont worry im not suicidal, thank goodness!


dont wanna think about it anymore.
blardy!

but today was also nice tho.
hehe.
haha.
khehe.
*smilesmile*
shaaaraaatuuull...


i dont think im gonna sleep soon.
just woke up at 9 pm rite after eating.
urgh. im supposed to lose weight.
but i guess not. haha.


me mom buying slimming lotion.
byebye fats. =))



today was supposed to be a holiday.

instead i woke up early [about 10am] to get ready.

for what?
sending my pop to the hospital.

he has checkup today.

the doctor was nice.
very friendly.
can speak malay fluently [he's NOT a malay btw]


im praying real hard for my grand dad.
he's been sick for a long time.
he HAS to stop smoking.
stubborn him.


doctor says he's playing with fire
to fast when he's so sick.

*you'll always be in my prayers



im sOo in love..
with the nickelback song!
photograph.
OMGosh!

the song is sOo nice.
im ADDICTED to it!

i am.. i am.. i am..

*HUGE smile*

and i cant stop repeating
the song by rihanna.
if it's loving that you want.

didididadididadidey.
*singing along to the song*
the rythm is so NICE.
and the lyrics is so shweet.

i donno how many times
the song has been repeatedlah.
im not even bored of it.
~whee

thanks, kak nana!
for downloading it for me.
*smile*
so very much.

i'll be your friend, i can be your homey.



i want!


i want bon jovi album!
please please please..

anybody buy for me that. =)
im so damn broke now.



ohh!
and i wanna take neoprints!
i wanna take with..
all the 3E5 people!
ex-niners!
anne! sarah! shrtl!
malay class people!


and alot others!
haiyy..
i want i want.



boohoo.
sadly got no money.


i'll try begging for it at tampines mall.
wakakakakaka.


yuni shut up!
*slaps face*


im in a crappy mood today.
so goofy.
blurblurblurrrr.

i like today!
so..
how was tampines to you, shrtl?
haha. nice ryt.


i noe. got alotta people.
thats why u like ryt? haha.
thats why i like oso.


tampines rox to the core man!
~wheeeeee




iwannaletyouknow
youdonthaftago
dontwondernomore
whatithinkaboutyou

Crazy
by Simple Plan

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look, I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
They won't stop till they've reached their dreams

Diet pills, surgery
Photoshopped pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn't make sense to me


Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong


I guess things are not how they used to be
There's no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it's World War III

No one cares, no one's there
I guess we're all just too damn busy
And money's our first priority
It doesn't make sense to me


Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy?
Is everybody going crazy?

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich guys driving big SUVs
While kids are starving in the streets

No one cares
No one likes to share
I guess life's unfair

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something, something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong



OMGosh.




i'm really in need of somebody ryt now.




---------------------------
i wanna cry.
i wanna shout.
URGH!
i wanna mess up my whole room
RIGHT NOW!

---------------------------



it hasnt been a nice day for me.




i feel like this is the worst day this year.
nothing has been right.




why! why! why!


ifeellikethewholeworld
istumblingdownonme
somebodysavemeplease
ineedsomeonerytnow
tobetheshouldertocryon





please



woa.



exams here. the day i've been reluctantly waiting.




im already sec 3.




in a matter of months, i'll be sitting for my o's.




gosh! time passes really fast.





i thot it was just yesterday that i got
the good news that i got admitted to TKGS.





i wish i was in neverland now.




this might sound childish but
i dont wanna grow up.





but still,
i have to return back to Earth
and realise that all living things grow,
no one can escape from it.





its just nature's way of working.






be born, live, grow and die.





its the same cycle for every person.




yeah. same cycle...

went to geylang yesterday.

omgoodness.
dominated by mats and minahs.
tatooed, with skimpy clothes and babies.

sheesh.
what's becoming with this malay population.
ish ish ish.


doing anything as they like.
MY GOODNESS.
grow up and realise man!
you're not living forever.
better make good use of it.
you only live once.
and that's it.

niwaes,
bought baju kurung and other girlie stuffs.
=))
wheee. i like my necklace.


bahh.
dont feel like ranting.
so nytes.





i have written a false information.
when it was 21st ramadan,
it's 8 more days of fasting [not 7].
so yarh.
sorry.

*sob sob*
wished it was.
but still...





by the way,
i wanna say happy 15th birthday to dhuha.
sorry i didnt get you anything now,
but soon, kay?
*winks*
can wait right.

so this dedication is to you.
dhuha. you're the lamest and goofiest person i've ever seen! you make my days. and i wanna thank you for that. and without you, i wont be this goofy and kental person i am now. i think i would've been those no-smile people, geddit? nvm. you're a year older now. any resolutions? hmm. i wonder what eh. i wanna eat the chocolate cheese birthday cake! hmph *folds arm*
niwaes, what shud i get for you? megazord? more cds? earrings? i wanna make it a memorable one. like the one you bought for me. cause nobody else would've bought me a wind-up toy. *BIG smile* thankew!
so, my last words, work towards your dreams. dont give up, aite! and plan your finances well. *winks* btw, i've come to realise media is a very bad influence. gosh! i used to want to be an advertiser.


bye!
happy birthday, dhuha!


bahh. im just gonna rant shite here.
so dont bother reading this entry.

ergh. ERGH!
that's the only phrase i've been repeating
since..

ergh!
there's sOo much to think about right now.
and they're so negative.
bahh. if im suicidal i could have killed myself by now.
cut my wrists, jump down from 25 storeys-high building,
anything to make these stupid feelings (mind, its plural) go away.
__________

and i dont feel like talking to you anymore.
you could be anyone, not necessarily YOU.
get me? [im talking rubbish.]

im sick of waiting for you.
waiting for something i noe that wouldnt come!

ergh.
ERGH.
wasting my frigging time.

and all i get is bullshite.
bullshite!

im just not gonna talk to you anymore.
talk the way we used to,
you talk behind my back.
and infront of me you tried to be there for me.
well, wake up sucker!
you think you're all so good.
high marks dont get you anywhere
if you have such a black heart.
because of you she doesnt trust me anymore.
and guess what? i dont need you two.

you're the only one i trust so much in school.
those were the words you said to me.
and to think that i used to fall that,
i must be really dumb not to realise that last time.
im not gonna waste my time with you.
go away!
__________

no words could describe what im feeling right now.
sad, angry, mad, furious, confused?
know that kinda feeling?
those feelings mixed into one.
when you dont know what you're really feeling.
but you just do.
and all you want is to get rid of it.
as fast as you can.

and it is sOo much harder to hide it.
i've tried my very best.
and if i leave traces here and there,
forgive me.
i never meant to.
and if i've been really rude,
forgive me too.
it's just so hard.


i wanna run away.
dont really have a good reason for it.
but i just want to.
juls, u can come with me if you want to.
*winks*

now if you think this bullshite is not me
than you dont KNOW me.
im not just a goofy, happy-go-lucky person u always think i am.
i can be really serious went it comes to certain stuff.
and im pretty serious about this.


and now all that is done,
fuck off!


so reluctant to go to school.

went to see shrtl first before heading to school.


and i was late btw,
thank goodness they were
still collecting the papers.


had CIP with farah.
we had s0o much fun!
haha. belanja pun banyak eh.
free shopping. ~whee


and that other girl
was such a weird person.
poking holes on boxes,
dancing with pieces of cloth
and sprinkling glitter on the floor.

this is weird but true.
and the thing is
she hardly spoke to us.
so it looks more freaky.


bahh. nice day.
nice day.
*nodds*


shrtl

dont cry. never cry.
went im not there
to hug you.
to comfort you.

remember. i'll ALWAYS be
there for you. through thick and thin.
i'm always with you 100%.


and you wont get in trouble.
just tell them the truth.
hopefully, with a lil' bit of
miracle, they'll understand.


and they WONT kill you lah.
haha.


lurveyoualways.

besties forever. =_)





got my results

i dont wanna talk about it!

dont ever ask me how it was
or anything concerning it!

im so blardy disappointed with my results.
i know i could do better.


i wanna cry?
i never do.
i donno how to.


disappointed? yes!
obviously.

i feel like jumping down from a building =).
dont worry im not suicidal, thank goodness!


dont wanna think about it anymore.
blardy!

but today was also nice tho.
hehe.
haha.
khehe.
*smilesmile*
shaaaraaatuuull...


i dont think im gonna sleep soon.
just woke up at 9 pm rite after eating.
urgh. im supposed to lose weight.
but i guess not. haha.


me mom buying slimming lotion.
byebye fats. =))


today was supposed to be a holiday.

instead i woke up early [about 10am] to get ready.

for what?
sending my pop to the hospital.

he has checkup today.

the doctor was nice.
very friendly.
can speak malay fluently [he's NOT a malay btw]


im praying real hard for my grand dad.
he's been sick for a long time.
he HAS to stop smoking.
stubborn him.


doctor says he's playing with fire
to fast when he's so sick.

*you'll always be in my prayers


im sOo in love..
with the nickelback song!
photograph.
OMGosh!

the song is sOo nice.
im ADDICTED to it!

i am.. i am.. i am..

*HUGE smile*

and i cant stop repeating
the song by rihanna.
if it's loving that you want.

didididadididadidey.
*singing along to the song*
the rythm is so NICE.
and the lyrics is so shweet.

i donno how many times
the song has been repeatedlah.
im not even bored of it.
~whee

thanks, kak nana!
for downloading it for me.
*smile*
so very much.

i'll be your friend, i can be your homey.


i want!


i want bon jovi album!
please please please..

anybody buy for me that. =)
im so damn broke now.



ohh!
and i wanna take neoprints!
i wanna take with..
all the 3E5 people!
ex-niners!
anne! sarah! shrtl!
malay class people!


and alot others!
haiyy..
i want i want.



boohoo.
sadly got no money.


i'll try begging for it at tampines mall.
wakakakakaka.


yuni shut up!
*slaps face*


im in a crappy mood today.
so goofy.
blurblurblurrrr.

i like today!
so..
how was tampines to you, shrtl?
haha. nice ryt.


i noe. got alotta people.
thats why u like ryt? haha.
thats why i like oso.


tampines rox to the core man!
~wheeeeee




iwannaletyouknow
youdonthaftago
dontwondernomore
whatithinkaboutyou

Crazy
by Simple Plan

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look, I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
They won't stop till they've reached their dreams

Diet pills, surgery
Photoshopped pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn't make sense to me


Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong


I guess things are not how they used to be
There's no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it's World War III

No one cares, no one's there
I guess we're all just too damn busy
And money's our first priority
It doesn't make sense to me


Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy?
Is everybody going crazy?

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich guys driving big SUVs
While kids are starving in the streets

No one cares
No one likes to share
I guess life's unfair

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something, something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong


OMGosh.




i'm really in need of somebody ryt now.




---------------------------
i wanna cry.
i wanna shout.
URGH!
i wanna mess up my whole room
RIGHT NOW!

---------------------------



it hasnt been a nice day for me.




i feel like this is the worst day this year.
nothing has been right.




why! why! why!


ifeellikethewholeworld
istumblingdownonme
somebodysavemeplease
ineedsomeonerytnow
tobetheshouldertocryon





please


woa.



exams here. the day i've been reluctantly waiting.




im already sec 3.




in a matter of months, i'll be sitting for my o's.




gosh! time passes really fast.





i thot it was just yesterday that i got
the good news that i got admitted to TKGS.





i wish i was in neverland now.




this might sound childish but
i dont wanna grow up.





but still,
i have to return back to Earth
and realise that all living things grow,
no one can escape from it.





its just nature's way of working.






be born, live, grow and die.





its the same cycle for every person.




yeah. same cycle...